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Painting Saved My Life

It sounds pretty dramatic to say that painting saved my life, but honestly, it did.

I shared my story here and here a few months ago.

I shared about how I went through stress and then extreme anxiety which ultimately made it to where I couldn’t even leave the house.

What I didn’t share about, was that looking back, I now believe I was severely depressed.  I had brief moments during that time where I thought about just ending my life.  Those thoughts obviously made my anxiety worse because I didn’t understand where they were coming from.

I was consumed with fear, depression, anxiety.. I was a real mess.

Once we moved to our current house, my husband urged me to start painting again. I think he knew that I was happiest when I was blogging and painting years ago, and I’m sure he thought that if he could just get me on that path again, I’d be back to myself.

I’ll be honest.  I did NOT want to paint.  I didn’t want to do anything but lay on the couch or sleep.

Then one day, while looking through Craigslist, I found a picture of a farmhouse console table.  I sent the picture to my husband and asked him if it was something he thought he might be able to make.  He said yes, and that weekend, we built our farmhouse table. (You can read that post here.  I have since repainted it as you can see in the picture below.)

Rustic Pig Designs: Farmhouse Console

Although I didn’t love painting this table, I loved seeing the finished product in my house.

At that point, I decided I would slowly go back to my blog, even though I didn’t want to.

I would start painting again, even though I didn’t want to.

And I would start an Instagram feed for my blog, even though I thought it would take YEARS to get anyone to follow me.  (What many people don’t know about blogging is that social media is super important in our little world.  I already had a following on Facebook and Pinterest, but when I was blogging years ago, Instagram was just getting off the ground so I didn’t have an Instagram account.) It felt like I was almost starting all over again.

While I tried to get my head into painting and blogging again, my husband was busy finding me pieces of furniture to paint.

He would excitedly send me a picture, and say, “What do you think?”

I’d say, “Looks great!”

And he’d buy it.

And then it just sat in the garage.  Taking up space.

For some reason, painting furniture didn’t sound appealing to me.  At all.

I decided that I wanted to start by painting something small, and that’s when I started painting my signs, and later opened my Etsy store last week. You can read about that here.

Buy on Etsy: RusticPigDesigns

I was shocked when I opened my store last week and sold 9 signs!  This blew me away!!  It also kept me busy this week and forced me to leave the house in order to go to the post office to mail them.

Then, I decided to start tackling the pieces of furniture in the garage.

I started with this piece…

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Hideous, I know.

I started off by sanding the top down to the raw wood.

Rustic Pig Designs: Painting Saved My Life

I loved the color of it after it was sanded down, so I decided to leave it as is.

Next, I painted the rest of the table using Rust-oleum’s Chalked Paint in Country Gray.

I also spray painted the drawer pulls white.

Rustic Pig Designs: Painting Saved My Life

When I was done, I distressed it in a few places and went over it with Rust-oleum’s Matte Clear finish.

Rustic Pig Designs: Painting Saved My Life

This was my first time to use Rust-oleum’s Chalked paint line, and I really like it.  (It is also WAY cheaper than Annie Sloan’s chalk paint!  A HUGE plus in my book!)

I was so happy when I finished this table today!

Friends, I know it sounds crazy, but I’ve watched God grow my Instagram account to over 4400 followers in one month, allow me to sell 9 signs in one week, and He has brought me joy again.  Something I thought I would never find again.

He allowed me to turn my mind away from the anxiety and onto something I love, and slowly, he has healed me.

I know, ultimately, that it was God that saved my life, but I truly believe He used painting as a way to give me joy again, which in the end, has saved me.

I love Psalm 40 because it is the perfect picture of what I went through…

I waited patiently for the Lord;

he turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

out of the mud and mire;

he set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

a hymn of praise to our God.

Many will see and fear the Lord

and put their trust in him.

Rustic Pig Designs: Painting Saved My Life

I am thankful that God used painting to pull me out of the “slimy pit, out of the mud and mire.”

I am also thankful to my husband, who was patient with me while I struggled.  Who loved me in spite of the mess that I was.  Who listened to my fears and held me when I cried.

I am thankful that God used my husband to model His love for me.

Even though I felt like God was far away from me during that time, like He wasn’t listening, or didn’t care, I can now look back and see that God really wasn’t far away at all.

Love you all!

Claire

 

 

Claire

My name is Claire and I am behind the blog... The Rustic Pig. I am a wife, a mother to 2 boys, and I just might be addicted to Craigslist. I love to buy antiques, paint them, and give them a chance to be loved again! Please feel free to pull up a chair and stay for a while. If you ask a question or leave a comment, I will be sure to get back to you as soon as possible!

      

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Texas gal, wife, mother to 2 boys, author behind the blog The Rustic Pig, business owner, antique lover, and Christ follower!
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  1. When I saw your sign, It is well with my soul”, it reminded me of the heart-touching story behind the writing of this beautiful song – the author was going through the worse time of his life when God gave him the words to write – https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/It_Is_Well_with_My_Soul

    Glad you are on the other side of the darkness, your honesty will help many people who also are struggling with depression & anxiety

    • Hi Denise! Yes, I’ve read that story before and it is heart wrenching! I don’t even know how he got through what he went through! Thanks for sharing and for your sweet comment! Hugs! Claire

  2. Claire – thank you so much for this post. It really spoke to me.

  3. I adore that table. I’m so happy you are blogging and finding your creativity that brings you such joy.
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  4. Claire,
    I am so happy you are back on track again! Most importantly that you are giving God the glory! Psalm 40 is one of my favorites because I was also in a dark place at one time and God pulled me through. Another Psalm to make it be your prayer is Psalm 119, it’s a long one, but I meditated on it day and night! Keep giving God the glory and keep busy like you have been! Many blessings to you and your family💕

  5. This is such a beautiful story! Thank you for being open and honest! I’ve walked in your shoes, too, in my own way. It is true that we are happiest when we are reaching the potential God designed us for. Beautiful table makeover by the way!

  6. Lois Greiner says:

    Beautiful! I am very happy for you and the healing process you have gone through. God Bless.

  7. Claire, I just love this and you. I know we’ve never met in person, but I feel like you’ve become a true friend…and it makes me teary to read this story! Happy tears! Prayers for you and so excited to get to walk along beside you on your journey! ❤️❤️❤️

    • Oh sweet friend!! I’m just now seeing this!! You are so sweet!! You were the first friend I made on Instagram. I think I started my journey a week or two before you did. You have no idea what a blessing you have been to me! Love you friend!! 🙂

  8. Thank you Claire. Your post gives me hope.

    • Hi Linda! I’m so glad that my post gave you hope! Keep up the faith and know that God is good. He has a plan for your life.. don’t ever forget that! Hugs, Claire

  9. Thank you for sharing your story, I know it was hard to do. I’m so glad you found a way back through your painting! God is good!

  10. Claire, I signed up to receive your posts by email once each week a couple of years ago. The emails suddenly stopped, so I checked occasionally for a while and eventually gave up. You are so inspiring, and I really enjoyed reading your blog as I built my own. It looks like we’ve both experienced tragedy in life, and we know Satan is behind it all. Those of us who share our faith on-line are his target, and what we think nearly killed us gives us new purpose and conviction to stand strong in the storm…not that I handled my situation perfectly, but God saw me through it all. Satan still attacks regularly – through my college-age kids’ lives. Ugh, he is relentless! I would love to run a couple of ideas through your brain as you get cranked back up again with blogging (which I’m thrilled about, by the way!). You have my email address now, so if you have time, please contact me by email. Your story is awesome, and I’m so glad you’re back with us again! 🙂

    • Hi Kim!! You’re so sweet!!! I’m so glad you’re still following along!! I would love to hear what you’re thinking! I’ll be waiting to hear back from you! 🙂

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